Really? you dont know me...

a life free from aquaintances is a life well known. we suffer alone because help is looked down upon. we prosper alone because sharing credit is a deed of no common man. we die alone because it will always be what is meant for us in the end, but until then we live as though a life full of people is the only option. for a life free from aquaintances is a life looked down upon…

when all is said, and what was is done

youve released a taunting burden, and finally won.

but once you realize, how far youve come

you will then look back, and see it was dumb.

to make that mistake, you thought was right

but all you were doing, was killing a light.

the light seen as home, one used as a guide

to show right from wrong, and help you hide.

now it lies dead, cold and alone

thanks to you, your light is unknown

its not sad. its not depressing. its fact, so face it or be slapped in the face when you finally become aquainted.

when a dawn breaks and you arent at my bedside, only then will a young lady have need to worry… for then she wouldnt be protected from this trecherous place we call life

sometimes you just dont want to believe it. its not your fault, its natural. for example… when you like someone and you know specifically they dont like you, well why in the world wud u want to believe that! anothr example… your parents get divorced. a little more serious right? a marriage of 24 years has cratered. that so called “loved” is burned and has turned to ashes in a matter of hours. aftr 24 years… is that possible? apparently so. his need for a seperation is shared with his wife. after hours of yelling, crying, packing, and shaking from shock this love shared between two people has vanished. it will never grow again and it will never be the same. for anyone….

so this thing called love… it can be done with so quickly, even after years of blooming. its not a permenant deal. and wat causes it? lust, infatuation, hormones? yes yes yes . love is merely a sexual feeling we get when we see something we want. it is not this grand emotion that is rare to find and shared between two people. thats a load of bull.. love is a myth created for the lonely and heartbroken. it doesnt exist! so y do we waste our lives searching for it? why do we base our lives on finding that special someone.. that perfect one? you get up in the morning and get all pretty to impress someone? they dont love you. you work so hard to impress that person.. for what?  our whole lives we are looking for someone that is suppose to be our perfect match. well stop looking. theres not a perfect one!

this may sound depressing.. how you wont get that perfect partner and that jazz. well perfection is impossible, but trust me. theres a lot of great people out there who are pretty dang close! im not telling u to settle, or just be ok with being satisfied. im saying yeah, wait for that great person.. make sure ther the one for you and that yall are compatible beyond belief. but if they arent perfect… dont be shocked!

I love her to death but sometimes she just doesn’t get it. I no that’s probably what the rest of the teenage girls on earth say. The ones who try and go out and party, or the ones that are constantly in a yelling battle with their mom’s but this is different. I don’t yell, I don’t argue, I simply obey. Wow that makes me kind of sound like a dog but its not that bad. I do what im told and try not to complain. However the whole time im thinking why? What for? Just because the others girls are doing it doesn’t mean I would … I understand why I guess. The whole mother thing and how shes just wanting to protect me but it gets a little outta hand. We live in a small town, Argyle. Haven’t heard of it? Ya, not surprised. Unless you live near you probably didn’t even know we existed. We win every title from athletics to academics to music and drama which is a simple example of why we are thought of a preppy goody good texas kids. With this in mind, you can see what frustrates me when my mom keeps me on house lock down on the weekends. Theres nothing to do here except movies at hilland village or a run to get ice cream. Ya we have the everyday pot heads and the sex addicts around here but who doesn’t. I know how to handle things, I get good grades, I just wish my mom would give me a little more freedom.

yes they are annoying and yes they dont ever leave you alone. they embarrass the crap out of you and sometimes you just want to simply get away from them. but its against the rules to be ashamed, its against the rules to reject them, and it is especially against the rules to love them any less because of who they are. accept what you are related to because you cant turn back the clock… they are your blood and thers no changing that so love em, take care of them, and let them know how much you appreciate them being there cuz sooner or later they will save you from a critical situation, they will stick up for you, and they will have your back… they’re family, and thats wat family does !!

Middle row, three seats back, dead center of the classroom. I sit there every day with the same people around me. Closed in at every angle, and still feeling the vacancy of an empty room. I can be around so many people and not be the least bit overwhelmed. The crowd has no affect on me for I am alone.

Do you ever just feel completely alone? As if when walking through the hallways at school the faces you see are mere ghosts. They don’t touch or bump into you. Eye contact is never made, and they glide past without a word spoken. Do you ever feel as though you are the only one left? The only one who still has the ability to step out of a daily routine and simply observe what is going on around you. Can you see it all? Do you recognize the pointless arguments that are constantly happening over unimportant subjects that couldn’t possibly affect someone as much as they think? Do you notice the people roaming around, just floating through life as if nothing can touch or hurt them? They think they are invincible. They feel as though they have the power, and they are what the world revolves around. Then there are those who sit in their seat, and watch everything as it goes by. These are the lost ones. Not knowing what to do with themselves, or why they were even put in this life. Do you ever just sit in the classroom and not feel anyone around you?